Wednesday, March 29, 2006


Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person starin' back at me I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me I'm my own worst enemy Its bad when you annoy yourself So irritating Don't wanna be my friend no more I wanna be somebody else
I wanna be somebody else, yeah

(i don't know why i really like the song these lyrics are from... i guess it could be that sometimes i can really relate and just wish that just for one day i could not be myself. Thank God that I haven't felt that way for a while.)

And I need to unwind, yes, and II need to unwind, yes, and IWant all the timeTo be loved, to unwind

(yes i feel like i need to unwind and just hang out. i really want this week to be over and for the craziness to settle to a managable level. right now as much as i love spring sing it is adding so much more extra stress, well not too much stress but stuff to do and taking time.)

Some heartsThey just get all the right breaksSome hearts have the stars on their sideSome hearts,They just have it so easySome hearts just get lucky sometimes

(sometimes i feel that is soo true and i am not one of those lucky hearts. but i realized that i am so even when i don't see it. i mean i have such a wonderful group of friends. Helen, Vanessa, Monique, Colleen, and Heather: thanks for befriending me in my first semester at Westmont and for being such good friends. Kate: thanks for being willing to talk with me and to listen to me and for just being you!! Mary, Jessica: You guys are amazing and I love ya! I'm sad we could not get to know each other much last semester. Cory: thanks for putting up with all kate's and even my jokes and cracks about us. Thanks for being a good friend. I am glad we could get to know each other this semester! and i'm so thankful for being able to hang out with you when i needed to just chill with ... not females. Ryan, Dean, Justin, Ben, Greg: thanks for welcoming me when i crashed in cory's room. twas fun to meet y'all and to get to know some of you better. Jesse: you are awesome!! thanks for being a pal! Thanks man. Hayley: LOOK AT THIS GASH!! it doesn't hurt you rock gurl! i'm so glad we get to work together and share such moments over family guy and funny last names of alumni. To all those away on off-campus programs: i look forward to getting to know you better next fall!! And most importantly to TESS and STACY:
Tess: where to begin? lol I love you to death gurl! I can't remember a time in my life when i didn't know you. you've always been there and a part of my life. we've been through so much together. You have always been my best friend and i intend it to stay that way.
Stacy: babe you rock my world with how strong you are!! you have been through a lot and you have always come out on top. you are an amazing girl and i love you soo much. i thank God that we met and we able to share such a wonderful relationship together. you have left a hand print on my heart. )

Sunday, March 26, 2006

SADIE'S 2006

Sadies 2006
"Where The Wild Things Are"
Me, Jessica, Kate, Justin, Cory, Helen, Mary, and Colleen

Last night was the Sadeis dance and it was held at the Santa Barbara Zoo. It was sooo much fun!! I went with Jessica and we went as goth. Kate and Justin went as flamingos. Cory was a wild animal tamer and Helen was a tiger. Mary and Colleen went stag and were reindeer. We went to Carrows afterward. Such a good time.

Friday, March 24, 2006

Lions and Tigers and Bears oh my!!

"Oh My!" That's right tomorrow is the Sadie's dance and it is being held at the Santa Barbara Zoo with the theme "Where The Wild Things Are." I am looking forward to it!! I am going with my friend Jessica and we are putting together our costumes today. We need to come up with some awesome costumes, and go all out!! I will take my camera to the dance tomorrow night and post pictures as soon as possible.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Spring Break Part 2

Random Photos from Spring Break '06:
Photo Session Part 2

Friday, March 17, 2006

I Will Be

Been caught in a downpour of a rain of stones
Felt like an exile in the world I had known
So I sought the shelter of my own soul
And stayed inside

I found no comfort in placing blame
I saw the hope that lay just beyond the pain
The past is a prison and I won't wear those chains
And I won't hide, oh no

I will be here
I will be strong
I'll face my fears
When the night is long
And still go on
I will be brave
I will be bold
Follow my faith
To a higher road
And I'm not there yet
But I will be

I could choose to keep my feet upon the beaten path
Never cross the open field for the one snake in the grass
But I'd rather risk my heart then never get the chance
To find my way, to find my way

I will be here
I will be strong
I'll face my fears
When the night is long
And still go on
I will be brave
I will be bold
Follow my faith
To a higher road
And I'm not there yet
But I will be

("I Will Be" -Wynonna Judd)

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

Spring Break Part 1

Random photos from Spring Break '06:
Photo Session Part 1

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Home Sweet Home

Huzzah! I'm home!
I am now home for Spring Break.
I got home around 11:30pm on Friday night. I caught a ride from Helen's sister, and enjoyed a crazy fun ride home.

(Anouska is the one in the very middle. )

Saturday evening I went to my cousin Anouska's last high school dance recital. We didn't get to go the last one and I don't remember why. The performance was very good, especially Anouska. I was glad I got to see her and her sister Natasha. I didn't think I get to see my cousins. I just wish I could see the cousin's on my mom's side of the family, Katie, Pat, and Shannon.

I did get to see Tess and Stacy after the recital. We went to Carrow's and got time to catch up. I was sooo happy to see them again. I'm glad to be alive I was attacked by two of the biggest hugs I've ever received in my life.

(Added Wed. Mar. 15):

Anyway, i can't believe it is already Wednesday. The week will be over before i know it and i'll have to return to Westmont. I mean it isn't like I don't want to go back to Westmont. Because in fact I miss all my friends very much.
I think I will going home Saturday morning. I need to finish talking to my parents about it and make sure one of them will drive me and I don't have to take the train.

Helen, Vanessa, Mary, Heather, Colleen, Daniel: I hope you are having a great spring break at home. I know I am. I hope you are getting any much needed rest. I can't to see you again soon!!

Cory, Kate, Ryan: I hope Potter's Clay is going well. I hope that you are having an amazing time. I will want to hear all about it. I can't to see you again soon!!

Friday, March 10, 2006

I was tagged...

A. Four jobs you've had in your life:
1. Post Office Mail Sorter
2. Phonathon Caller
3. Done a little babysitting
4. I also have done cat sitting

B. Four movies you could watch over & over:
2. Clue
3. Stand By Me
4. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

C. Four places you have lived:
1. Pasadena
2. South Pasadena
3. Santa Barbara
4. Page Hall

D. Four tv shows you love to watch:
1. Family Guy
2. The Simpsons
3. House
4. Futurama

E. Four places you've been on vacation:
1. Holland
2. Paris, France
3. Yosemite
4. Alisal Guest Ranch

F. Four websites you visit daily:
4. blogger

G. Four of your favorite foods:
1. Enchiladas
2. Orange Chicken
3. Swedish Meatballs
4. Mexican Pizza

H. Four places you'd rather be right now:
1. Home
2. My cousins' house in the OC
3. England
4. In my room at home

I. Four of your favorite things to do:
1. Listen to music
2. Just being with friends
3. Being with my family
4. Talking one on one with a dear friend

J. Four of your favorite drinks:
1. Passion Tea
2. Orange/pineapple juice
3. Hawaiian Punch
4. Coke ( but i gave up drinking soda period)

K. Four people who will respond* (this means you're tagged) :
1. Helen
2. Tess
3. Stacy (maybe if she has time)
4. Somebody surprise me and fill it out when i might not think you would

L. Four most important people in your life:
1. God
2. My family
3. My friends
4. My Brothers, Nick and Brad

Tuesday, March 07, 2006


So as many of you know I work for Phonathon which is all about calling Westmont alum and bonding with them and then ultimately seeking donations. I was talking with this elderly woman this past Monday night and she mentioned how about three years ago the Phonathon asked she wanted a penpal. And so she did get one and she said she really enjoyed having a Westmont student as a penpal. Well this has gotten me thinking about how penpals are a dying breed. I want to revive this tradition.
I would love to establish a good penpal relationship with someone and to rediscover the fun of sending and receiving letters in the mail. So listen up friends and family back home!! I would love to become your penpal. And to those of my friends here at Westmont, since we are here we don't need to be penpals (especially i see you guys like everyday) BUT during the summer I would love to be your penpal.
Now I wouldn't mind being electronic penpals via e-mail, but I prefer to do penpals the traditional way of sending letters in the mail.

Remember when we were penpals? Haha, even though you lived just around the block. I'm glad we did that though, because as we got older it got harder to hang out and keep in touch. I think I still have the letters you sent me in a file in my room at home. And I'm glad we are communicating via blogs and AIM. Keep in touch buddy!!

Comments? Thoughts? Questions?

Monday, March 06, 2006

Change in Plans

I have made a change in my spring break plans. I am no longer going to go on Potter's Clay to Mexico and instead I will be going home. I have just been feeling really homesick this past week and felt it was more important for me to go home and see my family and friends. I need to touch back to my roots and recharge my batteries in order to finish the semester strong. I know that I am making the right choice because when I called my family, Stacy, and Tess, I felt so much better. It soothed my soul to hear their voices again. I know I just need to see them and hug them again and I'll feel totally re-energized for the rest of the semester.