Thoughts....

Everyday I fight a war against the mirror I can't take the person starin' back at me I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me I'm my own worst enemy Its bad when you annoy yourself So irritating Don't wanna be my friend no more I wanna be somebody else
I wanna be somebody else, yeah

(i don't know why i really like the song these lyrics are from... i guess it could be that sometimes i can really relate and just wish that just for one day i could not be myself. Thank God that I haven't felt that way for a while.)

And I need to unwind, yes, and II need to unwind, yes, and IWant all the timeTo be loved, to unwind

(yes i feel like i need to unwind and just hang out. i really want this week to be over and for the craziness to settle to a managable level. right now as much as i love spring sing it is adding so much more extra stress, well not too much stress but stuff to do and taking time.)

Some heartsThey just get all the right breaksSome hearts have the stars on their sideSome hearts,They just have it so easySome hearts just get lucky sometimes

(sometimes i feel that is soo true and i am not one of those lucky hearts. but i realized that i am so even when i don't see it. i mean i have such a wonderful group of friends. Helen, Vanessa, Monique, Colleen, and Heather: thanks for befriending me in my first semester at Westmont and for being such good friends. Kate: thanks for being willing to talk with me and to listen to me and for just being you!! Mary, Jessica: You guys are amazing and I love ya! I'm sad we could not get to know each other much last semester. Cory: thanks for putting up with all kate's and even my jokes and cracks about us. Thanks for being a good friend. I am glad we could get to know each other this semester! and i'm so thankful for being able to hang out with you when i needed to just chill with ... not females. Ryan, Dean, Justin, Ben, Greg: thanks for welcoming me when i crashed in cory's room. twas fun to meet y'all and to get to know some of you better. Jesse: you are awesome!! thanks for being a pal! Thanks man. Hayley: LOOK AT THIS GASH!! it doesn't hurt though..lol you rock gurl! i'm so glad we get to work together and share such moments over family guy and funny last names of alumni. To all those away on off-campus programs: i look forward to getting to know you better next fall!! And most importantly to TESS and STACY:
Tess: where to begin? lol I love you to death gurl! I can't remember a time in my life when i didn't know you. you've always been there and a part of my life. we've been through so much together. You have always been my best friend and i intend it to stay that way.
Stacy: babe you rock my world with how strong you are!! you have been through a lot and you have always come out on top. you are an amazing girl and i love you soo much. i thank God that we met and we able to share such a wonderful relationship together. you have left a hand print on my heart. )

SADIE'S 2006

Sadies 2006

"Where The Wild Things Are"

Me, Jessica, Kate, Justin, Cory, Helen, Mary, and Colleen


Last night was the Sadeis dance and it was held at the Santa Barbara Zoo. It was sooo much fun!! I went with Jessica and we went as goth. Kate and Justin went as flamingos. Cory was a wild animal tamer and Helen was a tiger. Mary and Colleen went stag and were reindeer. We went to Carrows afterward. Such a good time.

Lions and Tigers and Bears oh my!!

"Oh My!" That's right tomorrow is the Sadie's dance and it is being held at the Santa Barbara Zoo with the theme "Where The Wild Things Are." I am looking forward to it!! I am going with my friend Jessica and we are putting together our costumes today. We need to come up with some awesome costumes, and go all out!! I will take my camera to the dance tomorrow night and post pictures as soon as possible.

Spring Break Part 2

Random Photos from Spring Break '06:

Photo Session Part 2

I Will Be

Been caught in a downpour of a rain of stones
Felt like an exile in the world I had known
So I sought the shelter of my own soul
And stayed inside

I found no comfort in placing blame
I saw the hope that lay just beyond the pain
The past is a prison and I won't wear those chains
And I won't hide, oh no

I will be here
I will be strong
I'll face my fears
When the night is long
And still go on
I will be brave
I will be bold
Follow my faith
To a higher road
And I'm not there yet
But I will be

I could choose to keep my feet upon the beaten path
Never cross the open field for the one snake in the grass
But I'd rather risk my heart then never get the chance
To find my way, to find my way

I will be here
I will be strong
I'll face my fears
When the night is long
And still go on
I will be brave
I will be bold
Follow my faith
To a higher road
And I'm not there yet
But I will be

("I Will Be" -Wynonna Judd)

Spring Break Part 1

Random photos from Spring Break '06:

Photo Session Part 1

Home Sweet Home

Huzzah! I'm home!
I am now home for Spring Break.
I got home around 11:30pm on Friday night. I caught a ride from Helen's sister, and enjoyed a crazy fun ride home.

(Anouska is the one in the very middle. )

Saturday evening I went to my cousin Anouska's last high school dance recital. We didn't get to go the last one and I don't remember why. The performance was very good, especially Anouska. I was glad I got to see her and her sister Natasha. I didn't think I get to see my cousins. I just wish I could see the cousin's on my mom's side of the family, Katie, Pat, and Shannon.

I did get to see Tess and Stacy after the recital. We went to Carrow's and got time to catch up. I was sooo happy to see them again. I'm glad to be alive I was attacked by two of the biggest hugs I've ever received in my life.

(Added Wed. Mar. 15):

Anyway, i can't believe it is already Wednesday. The week will be over before i know it and i'll have to return to Westmont. I mean it isn't like I don't want to go back to Westmont. Because in fact I miss all my friends very much.
I think I will going home Saturday morning. I need to finish talking to my parents about it and make sure one of them will drive me and I don't have to take the train.

Helen, Vanessa, Mary, Heather, Colleen, Daniel: I hope you are having a great spring break at home. I know I am. I hope you are getting any much needed rest. I can't to see you again soon!!

Cory, Kate, Ryan: I hope Potter's Clay is going well. I hope that you are having an amazing time. I will want to hear all about it. I can't to see you again soon!!

I was tagged...

A. Four jobs you've had in your life:
1. Post Office Mail Sorter
2. Phonathon Caller
3. Done a little babysitting
4. I also have done cat sitting

B. Four movies you could watch over & over:
1. RENT
2. Clue
3. Stand By Me
4. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

C. Four places you have lived:
1. Pasadena
2. South Pasadena
3. Santa Barbara
4. Page Hall

D. Four tv shows you love to watch:
1. Family Guy
2. The Simpsons
3. House
4. Futurama

E. Four places you've been on vacation:
1. Holland
2. Paris, France
3. Yosemite
4. Alisal Guest Ranch

F. Four websites you visit daily:
1. myspace.com
2. facebook.com
3. yahoo.com
4. blogger

G. Four of your favorite foods:
1. Enchiladas
2. Orange Chicken
3. Swedish Meatballs
4. Mexican Pizza

H. Four places you'd rather be right now:
1. Home
2. My cousins' house in the OC
3. England
4. In my room at home

I. Four of your favorite things to do:
1. Listen to music
2. Just being with friends
3. Being with my family
4. Talking one on one with a dear friend

J. Four of your favorite drinks:
1. Passion Tea
2. Orange/pineapple juice
3. Hawaiian Punch
4. Coke ( but i gave up drinking soda period)

K. Four people who will respond* (this means you're tagged) :
1. Helen
2. Tess
3. Stacy (maybe if she has time)
4. Somebody surprise me and fill it out when i might not think you would

L. Four most important people in your life:
1. God
2. My family
3. My friends
4. My Brothers, Nick and Brad

PenPal

So as many of you know I work for Phonathon which is all about calling Westmont alum and bonding with them and then ultimately seeking donations. I was talking with this elderly woman this past Monday night and she mentioned how about three years ago the Phonathon asked she wanted a penpal. And so she did get one and she said she really enjoyed having a Westmont student as a penpal. Well this has gotten me thinking about how penpals are a dying breed. I want to revive this tradition.
I would love to establish a good penpal relationship with someone and to rediscover the fun of sending and receiving letters in the mail. So listen up friends and family back home!! I would love to become your penpal. And to those of my friends here at Westmont, since we are here we don't need to be penpals (especially i see you guys like everyday) BUT during the summer I would love to be your penpal.
Now I wouldn't mind being electronic penpals via e-mail, but I prefer to do penpals the traditional way of sending letters in the mail.

Matt:
Remember when we were penpals? Haha, even though you lived just around the block. I'm glad we did that though, because as we got older it got harder to hang out and keep in touch. I think I still have the letters you sent me in a file in my room at home. And I'm glad we are communicating via blogs and AIM. Keep in touch buddy!!

Comments? Thoughts? Questions?

Change in Plans

I have made a change in my spring break plans. I am no longer going to go on Potter's Clay to Mexico and instead I will be going home. I have just been feeling really homesick this past week and felt it was more important for me to go home and see my family and friends. I need to touch back to my roots and recharge my batteries in order to finish the semester strong. I know that I am making the right choice because when I called my family, Stacy, and Tess, I felt so much better. It soothed my soul to hear their voices again. I know I just need to see them and hug them again and I'll feel totally re-energized for the rest of the semester.

Life goes on....

Oh my how time just seems to soar by.
I can't believe that this semester is half over already. We are already going to have a talk next Monday about housing for next year. I am going to try to join Cory, Dylan, Luke, and a few others who are unknown as of yet in a suite in VK next year. I really hope that it works out.

I am so excited and yet very nervous about Potter's Clay. I realized tonight at my group meeting that I will probably end up riding in a car with people not in my VBS team group because of odd numbers of seats in cars. And I will be tenting with guys I probably have never met. I am really looking forward to the trip though because my team is great and I can't wait to do VBS stuff with them. Plus it will be my first trip to Mexico!!

The past couple of days I have been feeling really homesick. I realized how much I really miss my brothers. I miss the times we'd stay up late chillin' in my room and just talk. I can't wait to see Nick and Brad again. I am really looking forward to Nick coming up in April. It will be so fun. I aslo can't wait to see my parents again when they come up to see Spring Sing. I miss my friends soo much!! I miss Tess and Stacy sooo much. I also miss Katie, Pat, and Shannon mucho. I can't wait until the six of us can be reunited. Oh such good times.


Although I can't wait for summer because I'm so done with classes and school, I don't want to leave my friends at Westmont! I am glad that Helen and Colleen live nearby and that I will be able to see them over the summer break. When I get my license this summer I think it would be so cool to take a little road trip and visit say Monique or Cory in nothern cali.

I am thinking as I type this entry that I really should be in bed as I have a class at 8am tomorrow morning and the current time is 12:30am. So I shall wrap up this decently long entry.

Just one word....HYPER

( if you look close in the last pic i am holding a very small wand )

This is what happens when I get hyper. And Cory made the mistake of falling asleep during the movie. Ahh four-day was awesome!! SO many inside jokes were created...well maybe "SO many" but it was good times for sure!

I got yet another haircut

Last night we cut hair. Tyler cut mine and I didn't think to get my camera until after my hair was done. So we had to take pictures because Cory was getting a mohawk. And well as you can see he did.

Crab Hunting

Last night we went crabbing. Cory, Tyler, JC, Dean, and Myself went out around 10ish and fished for crabs til well after midnight. It was so much fun! The first one we caught was farily small and faked being dead and we weren't sure for a while if it was alive or dead. But it was alive. Throughout the night we caught severval crab but only brought back to Westmont three. A small one, a medium one, and a large one. The last one we caught was the large spider crab. It was amazing.

Spring Sing Kick Off

Wednesday night was the Spring Sing Kick Off. Basically almost the whole school went the gym at 9:30pm and were all dressed up crazy like and were ready to hear the theme announced. Page men were supposed to go as superheroes, well not very many of us did. I did and I borrowed Mary's Batman suit!! It was amazing fun. The theme this year is "If I could Turn Back Time." (taken from the song by Cher)

After the kickoff we went to the Study for a talent show. Cory's brother Tyler was in it and he was amazing. He is really talented on the guitar and singing. I went to that still in the batman suit it was funny!

I went to the Beach!! (finally)

Saturday I went to the beach with Kate, Cory, and Helen. It was such a perfect day for the beach. Kate left early and Helen and Cory and I dug a big hole (that kinda started as small holes with tunnels connected underground). Then we started to make a TV out of sand but that didn't work so we made something else. Still not sure what you might call it but the last picture its it.

Videos!!!
http://www.archive.org/download/Cory_flinging_Seaweed_/Beach211064.AVI
Cory flinging and throwing seaweed.
http://http://www.archive.org/download/Chilling_at_the_Beach/Beach211063.AVI
Helen, Cory, and Kate chilling at beach ( i was but i was taking the video)
http://www.archive.org/download/Destroying_Sand_Castle_thingy.../Beach211066.AVI
Helen, Cory, and I destroying our sand creation!!

Blah Blah Blah

So this post has no real point ...


No, I have not "fixed" my hair yet. I do plan to cut off the black that remains soon. It is getting longer and starting to really not look good and annoy me. And I really want it done before i go to Mexico in March. I'M SO EXCITED TO GO ON POTTER'S CLAY!! I'm aslo happy that Kate and Cory are going too!! Yay for friends!

Had meeting about Poland with Richard II cast today....I'M SO EXCITED!!


Today I slept thru Psychology for the first time. And on the day our revised essays were due too. I e-mailed my professor and she let me turn it in this afternoon and all is well. I also missed chapel for the first time this semester today too. I had awoken at 6:45am to my alarm and was set to get up, however the next thing i know I'm waking up to the phone ringing and it is 10:15am!! SO i missed class...and decided not to go to chapel and take a shower instead.

Tomorrow morning I am going to meet with my advisor and talk about the possibility of graduating in three years instead of four. I have decided that I would love to graduate early. Not because I dislike Westmont and want to leave as soon as possible, no that is not it.


WEll it is getting late and i need to be awake before 10am!!

~UPDATE~
Thanks for making a post about the graduating early thing Gillian. I totally forgot I posted that. I have talked to my advisor and decided that it probably isn't going to happen. I'd be in school year round for three years and I couldn't do that. And I totally want to do an off-campus program!!

Phonathon

I had my first two shifts of Phonathon this week.
I worked Tuesday and tonight. I was going to work every Tues and Weds, but my schedule was changed and now I work Mondays and Wednesdays. I will probably like that better becasue I really did not like working for 3 hours two nights in a row.

The first night we just did thank you calls. Just like the calls I made when I volunteered for Thankathon. They are short and sweet. But for three hours, it gets kinda boring especially when you keep getting message machines.

Tonight though, we started with Thankathon calls then switched and did some actual Phonathon calls. I did not get any pledges tonight. In fact because it is Wednesday we got mostly message machines. Apparently most people have Bible studies and such on Wednesdays. So I got mostly machines tonight which was okay because I was still a little nervous about calling.

This is totally amazing!!

SO I went to this site originally to find a flash video that Vanessa had once shown me, called Magical Trevor. Which is a funny video and you should watch it. http://gprime.net/flash.php/magicaltrevor

But then I went to the picture section and these amazing pictures of sidewalk art.
This guy who does them is amazing and you'll understand why as soon as you see them.
http://gprime.net/images/sidewalkchalkguy/

CLUE

You scored as Mrs White. The less informatin people have about you, the better. Hey if they really want to know what you are like, they can chance meeting you in private. Your simple style shows you aren't out to impress anybody, but rather please yourself Mrs White 75% Mr. Green 63% Wadsworth 63% Professor Plum 63% Mrs Peacock 58% Colonel Mustard 58% Miss Scarlett 46% Clue...Who Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

My friend Kate created this quiz!!